by Texas Homesteader ~
During a particularly stressful time in my life I deal with restless nights. When a worried mind keeps me from sleeping, I’m comforted with assurance that I’m not alone.
I had been diagnosed with breast cancer. Let me tell ya, it’s terrifying hearing those words from your doctor “You’ve Got Cancer“.
There’s so many worries on my mind these days that I’ve struggled to sleep the last several nights. I roll over restlessly & glance at the clock – 2:45 a.m.
With a sigh I slip from beneath the sheet and come into the living room to peer out the window.
Resetting My Restless Heart
Yes I love this place where we live. It’s so beautiful here and it touches my heart in ways no other place I’ve ever lived has.
I silently open the door & step barefoot outside to clear my restless mind. The cool of the night rests gently on my face. The near-full moon is so bright it casts dappled shadows under the trees.
A cacophony of crickets serenades me from places unseen, the deep-croaking frogs keeping perfect time from the pond.
It’s amazing to me to think about the life that is so vibrantly active out here while the world sleeps. And as I stand there immersed in the sensations I struggle to take it all in.
Somewhere in the distance a lone coyote call echos through the creek bottoms – I’ve always loved their lonesome call.
I look up and can clearly see a wispy cloud floating silently by, perfectly illuminated by the bright glow of the moonlight as a young calf calls out softly from our nearby barn pasture.
The Presence Of God
It’s at this time that I feel the unmistakable presence of God saying,
“It’s OK child, I’m here with you”.
And I’m immediately comforted in the same way a fearful child is comforted by a loving parent.
Fear and worries are just a part of being human sometimes and there’s not a way to get around it. But during this one-on-one time with my Father I realize that He’s by my side every step of the way.
As I glance around one more time, savoring one more deep breath of that cool fresh air, I once again feel at peace.
Although I started out frustrated that sleep had alluded me, I’m glad that I didn’t miss this moment alone with God as I return inside with a renewed sense of calm.
I silently slide back into bed, feeling very loved as I quickly drift off to sleep.
NOTE: This pocket cross was given to me when I had my breast cancer surgery. It’s been in the lipstick pocket of my jeans every day since. If you’re looking for a pocket cross as well, you can find Pocket Crosses Here.
More about my healing journey:
- In Sickness & In Health
- The Love Of God Through The Love Of Others
- Witness In The Strangest Places
- A Restless Night & Comfort Received
- The Garden That LOVE Planted
- Pretty In Pink: Going Too Far?
- Putting Yourself Out There When You’re Painfully Shy
- Relay For Life = HOPE
- A Pocket-Cross Tradition For Comfort
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